Wednesday, 6 April 2011

Decisions,decisions,decisions??????

Hi well it is a beautiful morning , warm sun and soft breezes!


I have some decisions to make - I have to say I am so thankful for my girls on this road - they are my own personal gentle breeze!!
They bring a lightness to a difficult situation. My youngest daughter is so full of fun and joy - she sings and twirls from the moment her eyes open until she collapses at night - she keeps giving me these tender long hugs and says mum don't worry we will make it through this together!
Oh the maturity of a 9 year old.
Earlier this morning she told me I didn't need to put on any make-up as I was just beautiful without it! Clearly her rose-tinted glasses when looking at me were working very well hehe x
This was closely followed by mum do you know that when God looks down from heaven and sees you he must think that one of His angels are missing!!!
Oh the joys of your own personal praise singer - how special x


My older daughter and I had a more detailed chat about the decisions I have to make and we ended up laughing as we were talking about reconstructive surgery!!
I was explaining about the different ways reconstruction could be done and she thought it very funny that they can take a bit from your tummy area and make a new breast!
She looked at me with a wry smile and said if your hungry do you think your boob will rumble. To which we both collapsed laughing on the bed!!!
As I said my own personal breeze!!


So here I sit contemplating which road to take - part of the challenge is that I am not sure that I have all the information - so I think I need to be asking a few more questions!
I had a lengthy chat with a wonderful friend in the UK who has worked in this area of nursing for many years - what a blessing to have her to talk about the nitty gritty details! Thank you lovely friend if you are reading this.


In some ways it feels like things are going slowly and yet on the other this pace is allowing me the chance to let it all sink in - although even now there are moments that it all feels like a bad dream!
I am trying to take one day at a time.


A friend read something today that she sent to me which said
 'In the depth of my winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer' (Albert Camus).


Oh Lord let it be so .......







3 comments:

  1. Thought You could use a laugh this morning. Love you FOREVER and EVER. xxxxxx ♥ You are the best. xxx ♥♥

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  2. I tried to post a comment yesterday, but it got lost...cyber space must be crawling with all of these little notes!

    Your girls are amazing and I am so delighted that they are able to bring such moments of joy for you through all of this. Aren't daughters just amazing. I so wish we lived nearer so that I could see more of you and that our girlies could connect again.

    I was very much feeling like your Dad the other day and have found myself shedding so many tears for you precious 'pink peonie' - perfect choice, what a beautiful flower. but like he said they don't really bring much comfort and they don't exactly help you either! So enough of that...one thing we know is we need to keep our eyes firmly on heaven, and keep you before the throne...so that is what I do when I have a moment of sad feelings and thoughts...ahhh the comfort of heaven! Blessings to you precious friend! Mwah and HUG xxx

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  3. Yes my friend - it would be lovely to get together again!! You are such a delight Mich - so true the comfort of heaven is just that! I dont know why I have to take this journey but am so thankful I have my heavenly father holding my hand along the way xxxx

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